So today marks my 4 week mark of not gambling, happy days! This weekend marked the first real challenge though. I'm so busy with work during the week that it's only really the weekend where I get the urges to gamble. Just goes to show how important it is to have blocks in place, as despite the urges there was no physical way I would be able to gamble no matter how strong the urges got.
Had a pretty big argument with the missus and noticed she has some real resentment towards me for all the damage I have done with my gambling over the last year. It's fair enough and expected really, although it made me feel more depressed than I have in some time. Seeing such a huge part of my paycheck go out to pay off debts straight after it hit my bank was pretty depressing as well and just goes to serve as a reminder about how bad things had become. That would normally serve as a trigger for me, seeing all that money going out of my account would just make me want to try and recoup those losses, inevitably ending with me losing most of my money and going back to those dreaded payday loans. Good feeling to break that cycle, even if it's only been one weekend.
Here's to another week!
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